at the beach

and if i feel like i am tired
and need to unwind,
i can only go to the beach
in a late afternoon to watch the sunset.
and then i empty my mind..

suddenly, i feel so relax
just hearing the sound of the waves
that splash out to the seaside...

and then suddenly,
the rays of the sun that touches the ocean ...
so beautiful that you can just see
the silence of the water from afar,...

with the small waves that dances...
with the whole surroundings
that turns into orange color.....
and the horizon....

this is my life...
so boring...
so lonely....
so dull...

but i'm ok...
i will be ok...

I'D RATHER BE...

it wasn't easy being alone...
but many tmes, i thought,
i'd rather be...
if only to find myself...
if only to realize things...
and know the difference..

although i don't say
i don't need someone...
of course, i do need it...
a friend, whatever you call it...

just like i always dream about...
someone to listen to my heart...
to laugh with...to cry with...to just be with....

simple living is all i want...
but life has its ups and downs,
and you can't help, if not,
run away from the complications
that life brings me...

it's alright...i'm still alive...
survival is the word....
and it's what, i guess,
am suppose to do...
to survive every single day that comes...
no matter what...